hahaha. yo yo yo! i talked to haziq again. haha. Actually i wanted to ask him about the malay file. I then thought that it would be weird so i changed and asked khairul but both answered me! haha. He was then outside my class. He said "noisy la". haha then i gave him THAT look. haha. Edmund and everyone was outside too. I was talking to joel^^ haha. I talked to him by saying "sebok arh! shh! shh! shh!" hehe. he said"shh" bak. haha. Edmund was just smiling >.< haha. CUTIES! haha. i feel that haziq looks better with his glasses on. hah.

I had fun with my friends today. I was HIGH! and was like laughing almost the whole day. haha. i had fun with yong chyn too! tml im going to ngee ann poly. i have no idea on how to get bak. haha.

Anyways.. i dont think im going to excercise today. haha. Im just going to do stretches, crunches and jumps. haha. As long as it makes me sweat. >.<

woiii!!!! Im soo happy today! first off, i received a friendster comment from hariz, he said sorry for not msging me these past few days, he said he will as soon as he cleans up his mess? im not sure what, but nevermind. I merely told him to take his time. haha. Im just glad he still contacts me. >.<

MAIN EVENT!!!!! I went to temasek poly! i was really looking forward to the visit. They are having the open house today. We received so many freebies. I have a bag, a shirt and many many more. haha. Can you believe steven won an IPOD? haha. lucky him. ^^. yesterday i was actually dreaming i would meet the SLEEQ boys. Today it didnt happen... BUT!!! i met ONE of them!! i think it was Alif? im not really sure which is which. haha. thats because im not a fan of their music. I only happen to like 1 of their songs. HICCUPS. haha. catchy tunes. I only think that the guys are cute. butu sadly he didnt even give a passing glance at me and i only noticed him from the corner from my eye coz i was actually talking to one of the tp students? he was in business, tourism. haha. cute and short guy. he seemed fond of fiona. haha. He actually asked me to hold onto his flag once, when he handed it to me, he was like rubbing onto my hands. woah! it was weird. but, who cares. He remembered my name i hope. THEN THERE WAS WESLEY!!! hahaha. he is anotehr cute guy from engineering. he was helping us tour and was a really great friend to talk to. he really wanted us to join tp. HAHA. I was actually the first person that day to ask for his name. He then said sadly, "nobody asked for my number" hahahaha. ADORABLE. haha. If i go to tp next year, i really hope i can meet him again. haha. but i doubt it.

oh well, anyways, i think alif didnt look at me coz i was in my uniform? i really dont like that uniform. its funny looking. AND most probably my hair was messed up. haha. OR!!! im getting uglier and fatter?? oh noo!! CRAP! hahaa. i gotta lose MORE weight! arghh!!

Double crap! tomorrow is height and weight day! shit! i dont think i've lost any weight yet! arghh!!!! nooo!

woooo!! i cant get that moment i saw alif out of my head, i hope i meet BOTH of them next time. or even better, we could be friends???? wooooohoooo!!!hahaha

i think syarif has a more cooler look than alif but alif is a boyish 18 year old guy. woah! I like those kindda guy. hmmm.. i wonder what would happen??


ALLAAARRRR!!! i gotta go . mommy nagging! stooooppid laa.

YAY!! 3rd time in a row! woohoo!!! i am so proud of myself.

OK! firstly, i wanna talk about school. Today we only watched a video during history lesson. Some students asked mr arasu[history teacher] when we are really going to start learning and stop watching powerpoints and movies. Mr arasu replied by saying, "you hear, you forget. You see, you remember. You do, you remember" he quoted it from somewhere. haha. But i thought that it was nice and i really agree to what he said. I'd rather have an interesting lesson to just listening to the teacher talk.! BORING! haahaa.

Then was Add math. WOW!! *bangs head* We got nagged throughout the whole lesson! can you believe that?! nevermind, its ok, i forgive her, HEHEHE!
The rest of the day was pretty cool!

Now, coming bak to the title "weird dream..."
well!!! i actually had a dream about him. *winks* haha. it was kindda nice actually. *tts why its called DREAM* lol
well, right now he doesnt msg me anymore right? in the dream he suddenly did, he called too! haha. I can only roughly rememeber. He msged me about sth and i didnt reply coz i was busy but there was an urge for me to reply him no matter what. Then he called, i wanted to answer but i cant. *maybe i dreamt i was in class?* So i msgd him saying, im sorry. He msged back, scolding me. He said that he wanted me to know how much he truly liked me and how could i hurt him or sth like that. He said i betrayed him by getting kissed by someone name mitchel??? Mitchel??? The only person i know with that name is Michelle's YOUNGER brother! why would i get kissed by him???!!! EEWWW! we dun even talk teach other. But in the dream i remembered feeling guilty. awww.. it was sweet but it isnt reality. Right now,he doesnt seem to give a damn. oh well...

I saw a friend with her boyfriend. They look cute together. A sweet couple. Sometimes i wonder how it would be like to be in a relationship yet again? I've been rejecting everyone who asked me to go steady because i wanna keep my promise. BUT sometimes its tempting to break that promise because when the guy i truly like comes to me, i dunno how to say NO. haiyo! troublesome!!

YAY! tml i will be going to temasek poly with the other sec4 express students. WOW! i cant wait! yippee! I dun feel like pining up my hair anymore! it sucks! i hate it! everytime i wanna let it down, it'll look yucky! well, my school is long winded! haiyo!

oh wow!! Can you believe that i've updated for 2 days in a row??? WOW!! AMAZING!hahaha. Well, sadly today i was told to stand for 1 whole freaking hour because i didnt hand in my asignment in time. I suppose it was my fault so i cant blame anything OR anybody. haha oh well, okokok! so i dunno whether he's going to msg me today anot but actually, im starting not to care. ALTHOUGH i might occassionally, sometimes, glance at my phone for mseges. And everytime theres a msg i would secretly hope its him. What can i do? Ive totally fallen for him... i think. Im not sure how its like to TOTALLY fall for somebody. or maybe i do. who knows. Anyways, i have tons of things to do tonight. I have homework, i gotta revise, AND i have to excersice!!!!! i wanna lose weight mind you. hahaha. My weight is **kg. haix... heavy right? My bestie says i shouldnt lose anymore weight. BUT im doing this for myself and not for him. Oh yeah!! he changed his hairstyle yet again. no wait, actually he just cut it shorter. It looks super weird. AND he's starting to be emo. I have a secret to tell, i feel weird around xuan le. And its not in a good way. not in a good way at all. Im trying to shake this feeling off since he's my best friend. HAIXX!!!!!!! I dunno, maybe its his face? or his smile? his hair? but how can i judge him like that?! im so angry at myself for this. haiyo! haix haix haix. Maybe i just need time away from him.

oh yar and, i find myself weird looking??? i need to work on this. First off, i need to lose weight!!! exercise. Its been a super long time since i've it. kay kay kay . i better go off now!

hey hey hey, i know its been a super duper long time since i've updated BUT i'll try my best to do it okay?? hahaha. Well, im kindda heartbroken. This guy i like hasnt been himself lately. I dunno whether its me or him but i feel hurt. I also feel bad because i have never met him before. I know him through friendster and he's Danial's friend. He's super duper sweeet. But i dun wanna get all emotional over him because.... I HAVE NEVER MET HIM! Until i confirm my feelings then i'll think about it. But i doubt that i wanna have any relationships, i've promised myself that i dont wanna have any relationships before o levels. After that, i'll consider. But what i really want is to find that special some1, that prince charming i wanna spend my whole life with. I dont want a guy to like me because of my looks. I hate it *even though it feels good sometimes* hahahaha. I want the guy to like me because of my personality. The guy i currently like claimed he likes me coz of my personality but i cant be so sure. He hasnt talked to me in real life. The guy i wanna be with has to be SUPER DUPER DUPER patient. I love making jokes and havng fun and i hate serious guys. Guys should be more open BUT of course... they need to know when to get serious la. Maybe right now, i should just forget about it,,, about him... It hurts.. but this isnt the first time and so far, I've survived. The OTHER PREVIOUS guy i had a crush on did the exact same thing to me. What was he thinking?! If he was trying to play me, well, he wasnt very good at it. Anyways, i gotta get going.

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